You realize that you’re living on a budget
when you forget your CTA pass at home, and you decide to walk it instead of paying
two dollars for a 5 minute journey by bus.
This is what happened to me today. It was very hot, and I was so pissed
off at myself, for forgetting the CTA pass (which costs $86, and is valid
for 30 days). Notwithstanding the heat, I decided
that bussing it was not worth the money.
The walk was a very good opportunity for me to reflect on
the whole scope of this journey of mine in the US.
Sometimes I ask myself, why am I doing
this? Why did I decide to leave
all the comforts of home? Sometimes
I think I was in a bout of craziness when I took the decision. Back home, I had all I needed, and I
could enjoy everything I wanted.
Having a job, made spending not an issue and I never really budgeted. I must admit my life was too
comfortable, perhaps too unchallenging.
Not being pampered gives a new dimension to
life. I’m becoming to realise that
all in all, this is a necessary experience, which I had to undergo to really
understand, what’s going on in the world, to get in touch with reality.
Being forced to select the cheaper options
is not nice, but it is helping me understand what most of the people in the
world experience in their life. Those
are the real life decisions that some people in the world have to
consider. Some can’t even consider
these options, because they need to think about more urgent decisions to be
made, such as whether they will have any food to eat, or a place where to stay for the night.
Someone this week, described Malta as a
paradise, and asked why would someone decide to leave paradise? It reminded me of someone else who we as christians believe did the same.
I'm not comparing myself to Jesus, but I believe the answers shouldn't be that different. Sometimes we do things which we don't really understand, but of one thing I'm sure: This step was necessary & wonderful.
P.S. Mind you, before you start thinking I'm living like a tibetan monk, I must tell you that I'm still very backwards in the journey of detachment from worldly pleasures, and I'm not sure if I ever will.... I have just opted for a pair of branded sun glasses, when I could have gone for a much cheaper kind. It was probably a moment of sheer bliss, when I wasn't conscious of what I was doing (or how much I was spending...)